Long Reads

When Grief Turns Superstition Into Compulsion

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Superstition ruled my mind. More than I realized. I had no idea, within hours, there’d be no child to mother. And then he was gone. And we were childless.

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I'll Keep You Safe, Mom

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I stood in the hallway and tentatively pushed the bathroom door open, holding my breath as I peered into the darkness, waiting for it to bump into

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How My Alcoholic Ex Strengthened My Relationship With Our Daughter

First, I tell her the love story, and also the heartbreak story, and she listens, even if she's heard so much of this before.

As long as I give my daughter the space to talk, I feel like my alcoholic ex can strengthened my relationship with her. I hope she knows that I'm here.

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Navigating The Delusions Of A Loved One

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After my mother’s suicide in 2009, I was left with a gnawing sense of guilt. My mother had suffered from an undiagnosed delusional disorder.

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Inglorious Touch 

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Pulling the plug on the numbing forces you to look at your past, dealing with the knives you’ve been carting around which are now being thrown.

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The First Girl: On The Loss Of Friendship 

Photo Credits: Marnie Goodfriend

There is no support or safety net to break one’s fall when friendships fade or split apart. There's not an acceptable period of isolation.

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Taxi Dancer: Giving Myself Away, One Song At A Time

And with that, I became a Taxi Dancer. Ten cents a dance, that's what they pay me.

I did it for the money, sure, but also out of a strange mixture of boredom, perversion, and self-abnegation. Giving myself away, one song at a time.

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Voice Lessons: Why I Speak Without Raising My Hand

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Our noises are more than just vibrations; our soundings help constitute our presence in the world. Listen to me: what I have to say right now matters.

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How Growing Up Russian And Cuban Made Me An American

“We are moving to America,” they told me.

I landed at Miami International Airport knowing nothing other than that my Cuban father and Russian mother had decided to move our family there.

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Real Teacher, Fake Dinosaur Quarry 

At first, every time the quarry had a group scheduled, the same level of panic would hit all over again.

I walk out onto our fake dinosaur quarry, and watch in fear as a line of second graders get ready to witness my first time delivering the lesson.

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